Haven't written in too long. Am doing what many other mothers out there are doing....just about everything for everyone else, and just about nothing for myself. No time! Or is it no energy?? Who really knows.....but I am GREAT at one thing: feeling GUILTY. For what? You name it. Let's put it this way: 1. I am a woman. 2. I am a mom. 3. I am catholic. I have the word GUILT written all over my forehead - can't you see it?
I never did run that 5km on Oct. 4th.....woke up with a fever, feeling quite weak-kneed and dizzy, so I didn't run. Feel any guilt about that? You betcha. But I was there cheering on my loved ones anyway. So so proud of them all - for their performances, and for just doing it. Of course, I did ask myself why is it so hard for me to run a meazly 5km???? Seemingly effortless for them. Be patient, I know....
Good news though....I am learning. Last Friday, I gave myself permission to take the day off and get some much needed rest and sleep. Afterall, I could barely speak, had a borderline fever, felt like crap, and still had lots I HAD to do. This is all part of my new 10 day-old mantra: It's okay if you don't get everything done. You don't have to be superwoman.
Hmm.....did I mention the guilt thing??? Yah....thought so.....
It's a process, hang in there!
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You're too hard on yourself!!!!!!!!! And no it wasn't easy....I had to walk 20 seconds or so...and that really sucks cause it was only 5k!!!!!!!!!
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