Hormones: The Joys of Womanhood

It has truly been a privilege to experience the wonder, excitement, pain, love, and everything else that comes with motherhood. But those damn hormones.....I can't quite make up my mind if I love 'em or hate 'em. What brings this up you might wonder? Well....it's THAT week of the month again, and once again I'm battling a migraine. I know I know...migraines can be triggered by so many different things...but when they occur at the same time of just about every month, there's a good chance the cause is hormonal or the change in hormone levels. UGH. I also hear the darn things could be responsible for my bald patch on the side of my head. What is up with that?? Am I perimenopausal?? Already?? Ok...maybe, I am not so young anymore, so it could be. But how do we really know? I'm getting tired of using the 'Oh - it's not my fault - it's the hormones talking' excuse. Not to mention I'm sick of the headaches every month...
Well I guess I'll know what to ask at my next Dr.'s appointment...

Finally!

Am rather excited at the thought that I'm actually finished doing everything I HAD to absolutely, without a doubt, definitely get done tonight....and it's only 9:00pm. Woohoo!! I might actually get more than 6 hours of sleep tonight!! So please sleep gods....no bad dreams, no kids having bad dreams, no loud snoring, no pee breaks, no sick kids.....did I forget anything?? I don't ask for much. Just one night can make a huge difference. Thank you!

Guilt....

Haven't written in too long. Am doing what many other mothers out there are doing....just about everything for everyone else, and just about nothing for myself. No time! Or is it no energy?? Who really knows.....but I am GREAT at one thing: feeling GUILTY. For what? You name it. Let's put it this way: 1. I am a woman. 2. I am a mom. 3. I am catholic. I have the word GUILT written all over my forehead - can't you see it?
I never did run that 5km on Oct. 4th.....woke up with a fever, feeling quite weak-kneed and dizzy, so I didn't run. Feel any guilt about that? You betcha. But I was there cheering on my loved ones anyway. So so proud of them all - for their performances, and for just doing it. Of course, I did ask myself why is it so hard for me to run a meazly 5km???? Seemingly effortless for them. Be patient, I know....

Good news though....I am learning. Last Friday, I gave myself permission to take the day off and get some much needed rest and sleep. Afterall, I could barely speak, had a borderline fever, felt like crap, and still had lots I HAD to do. This is all part of my new 10 day-old mantra: It's okay if you don't get everything done. You don't have to be superwoman.

Hmm.....did I mention the guilt thing??? Yah....thought so.....
It's a process, hang in there!